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Running Shoes
03:11
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When we met in the mountains, we played in the fountains like we’d never get old
So when we did, it was too soon and I couldn’t forgive you for the lies that you told
I’m still making to-do lists, leaving them unchecked under my bed
I just can’t believe you’d be happy to see me after all that I’ve said
And I don’t miss the days I thought that you were mine
It’s funny how that fades with time
And pints of whiskey every night
Romantically in the twilight
If something ever turns out right
I’ll switch to wine
Or maybe limit my intake to manage the heartache that good times will bring
‘Cause now my memory's slipping. I don’t know what I’m missing; I just miss everything.
Baby, your teeth are crooked, but each one is perfect standing alone
And maybe that’s why I had to abandon the old crew and go out on my own
And I don’t miss the days I thought that I was dead
It’s hard to live inside your head
On only nicotine and bread
With all the books you still haven’t read
I’m putting on my running shoes
To leave my bed
I’m planning a major comeback
That no one will notice at all
My ghost has already gone back
To that dark and deadly fall
To walk down our old house’s halls
And paint over the dirty walls
We left when we went away
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2. |
Walk Away
02:32
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I should have known to walk away
And save my hate for another day
But how could I have known my hands
Had that kind of power
When they tremble at my sides
Throughout the darkest hours?
I should have known to walk away
And save my hate for the working day
I was working to forget
When you found me back there
In the garden of the bar
Just trying to get some fresh air
But I lost control a moment and
You lost something that you’re never gonna get back again
Now I count the days til I see the sky
And think of your face when that old train comes rolling on by
Why’d you have to die?
I should have known to walk away
And save my hate for a rainy day
But my pride’s a fragile thing
That I must look after
And I couldn’t march away
To the music of laughter
I lost control a moment and
You lost something that you’re never gonna get back again.
Now I count the days til I see the sky
And think of your face when that old train comes rolling on by
Why’d you have to die?
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3. |
Hospital Bed
04:15
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Stuck in that hospital bed
You did this all on your own
Or so the nurses all said
Before they left us alone
Maybe you’re not thinking of me
When you say everyone’s let you down
But I still take responsibility
For not dragging you all the way out
From under that shadow of doubt
20 cent pitchers of beer
I met you back in ‘04
But I’ve known you 26 years
Where was your body before?
Maybe you’re not thinking of me
When you say everyone’s let you down
But I still take responsibility
For not reaching my hand all the way out
And just watching a friend of mine drown
And I know how it feels
Except I don’t know how it feels at all
Just that this winter’s almost gone and next winter’s almost here
Can I see you in fall?
Maybe you’re not thinking of me
When you say the whole world’s let you down
But I still take responsibility
For not calling when you were in town
I thought I’d see you next time around
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4. |
Couch
01:02
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After all the money went and after every fight I witnessed
You still fall asleep together on the couch each night I visit
And I wish I had learned to love from the stories that you told
And not the image of a mother growing cold
Just wishing that you’d be the man you’d seemed to be
Just wishing that you’d be that man for me
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5. |
Sylvia (World of Hate)
04:45
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We rode bikes past that house on the day that she died
And there wasn't a sound or a chill in the air
We only later heard news of what had happened inside
When her body gave out at the foot of the stairs
If there was something underground
Just screaming to be let out
We didn't notice it until
It left its tracks through our town
And in the bloody aftermath
We stood looking around
And wondering where we had been
Looking before the day when
Somebody could have saved you if you had only spoken out
And no, I could never blame you-- I only wish you had now
When they breathed into your body, it was already too late
And you'd only just had that one look at a world of hate
We threw rocks at that house for the next fifty years
And no figure appeared in the attic window
We skipped class and we drank stolen bottles of beer
In the back of your car on the way to the show
And we grew up and we moved out
Every year in small ways
Past the Jesus billboards and
Beyond the forgotten graves
Of Sylvia and all the rest
I don't remember their names
But I'm afraid that underground
Their flesh decayed the same way
Somebody could have saved you if you had only spoken out
And no, I could never blame you-- I only wish you had now
When they breathed into your body, it was already too late
And you'd only just had that one look at a world of hate
And when it happens, it is never quite clear
How this could happen, but it does every year
I'll sleep through the same life
That was taken from you
Though it doesn't seem right
But what more could I do?
Somebody could have saved you if you had only spoken out
And no, I could never blame you-- I'm just thinking out loud
When they breathed into your body, it was already too late
And you'd only just had that one look at a world of hate
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6. |
The Last Hurrah
03:32
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I know what steps I must take
To stop making these mistakes
And I have been making plans
To become a better version
Of a numb and bitter person
In control and in command
I can say with confidence
It's over after July
I've got some friends in town next week
It's over and done on New Year's Day
After we've had a chance to speak
And every night's the last hurrah
Every night's the last hurrah
It's over until next time
Remember me when I am gone
Pissing on the neighbor's front lawn.
You don't know I pissed the bed
And that I almost bled out that night
In toilet water under blacklight
Not knowing what I had said
I can say with confidence
It's over after July
I've got some friends in town next week
It's over and done on New Year's Day
After we've had a chance to speak
And every night's the last hurrah
Every night's the last hurrah
It's over until next time
Until next time
That I get sick
Of my sick mind
Until next time
That I get sick
Of my sick mind
I can say with confidence
It's over after July
I've got some friends in town next week
It's over and done on New Year's Day
After we've had a chance to speak
And every night's the last hurrah
Every night's the last hurrah
It's over until next time
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7. |
In Case You Come Back
04:24
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I called your phone again
And heard it ringing in our dresser drawer
I keep it charged and leave it on
Though you don't need it anymore
But when your voice came on
Everything felt just like it did before
And I cried sorry til it cut off
And threw my phone on the floor
Your shirt is hanging on the shower rod
The door is on the latch
I'll leave the front hall light on all night long
In case you come back
I thought I heard your car
Pull into the garage the other night
But there was nothing when I looked out
And turned on the ceiling light
So I went back to bed
And made sure not to roll onto your side
We've had our obstacles before, I know
We're gonna be alright
Your shirt is hanging on the shower rod
The door is on the latch
I'll leave the front hall light on all night long
In case you come back
Your shirt is hanging on the shower rod
The door is on the latch
I'll leave the front hall light on all night long
In case you come back
In case you come back
In case you come back
In case you come back
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8. |
Tell That One Again
02:34
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I woke up on your leather couch
In the afternoon
Helped you empty the cans of beer
Left around the room
It was good to see you again
Though it’s less and less
We’ll always be friends
And I won’t feel so alone
When it’s time to go
When the party ends
Tell that one again
About the fights we won
About the girls we kissed
In 2001
It was good to see you again
Though it’s less and less
We’ll always be friends
And I won’t feel so alone
When it’s time to go
When the party ends
Drive me downtown in
Your brand new car
I’ll take the bus back
To my guitar
I’m gonna be a big star
I woke up in the house you bought
In the afternoon
Helped you pick up the paper plates
Left around the room
It was good to see you again
Though it’s less and less
We’ll always be friends
And I won’t feel so alone
When it’s time to go
When the party ends
Tell that one again
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9. |
Crossing Atlantic Avenue
04:23
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Crossing Atlantic Avenue
Retracing my steps back home from you
Halfway to the other side
The flashing hand solidifies
And I watch the trucks roll through
Crossing Atlantic Avenue
(I never want to go home I never want to go home)
Could not be the hardest thing I’ll do
(But I will do it alone I will do it alone)
And when I’m back in bed in Bed-Stuy
I will relive the short goodbye
Trying to read your palm
Pretending the life line’s long
And I didn’t live mine wrong
And that I really tried
I thought it could be something more than a mistake we made twice in our lives
But now I can see I was feeding my heartache, grabbing and twisting the knife
I needed something warm and you’re gone
I needed something
I’m not cold- I’ll leave the heater on
Till the morning comes
Crossing Atlantic Avenue
(I never want to go home I never want to go home)
Could not be the hardest thing I’ll do
(But I will do it alone I will do it alone)
And in a year I’ll have forgotten
I ever even let you in
Trying to read your palm
Pretending the life line’s long
And I didn’t live mine wrong
And I don’t see the end
I thought it could be something more than a mistake we made twice in our lives
But now I can see I was feeding my heartache, grabbing and twisting the knife
I needed something warm and you’re gone
I needed something
I’m not cold- I’ll leave the heater on
Till the morning comes
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10. |
Shame
03:09
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I’ve been trying to forget the past and let myself move on
But I remember every word I’ve ever said to anyone
When we’re dead and we’re gone who will know?
When we’re dead and we’re gone no one will know
We were ever even here
Please tell me you can’t see the
Evil in my eyes
I’ve tried to hide it but
It’s been there all my life
I’ve been trying to move on from you and everyone.
I’ve been trying to forget the past and accept that it’s gone.
When we’re dead and we’re gone who will know?
When we’re dead and we’re gone no one will know
We were ever even here
Please tell me you can’t see the
Evil in my eyes
I’ve tried to hide it but
It’s been there all my life
Please tell me you can’t see the
Hatred in my eyes
I’ve tried to hide it but
It still comes out sometimes
I don’t want to hide
Til the end of time
Please believe me when I say that
I’m sorry for my crimes
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