What We Will Be

by Spirit Night

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released May 1, 2010

Written by Dylan Balliett 2005 - 2010.
Percussion written and performed by Pete Wilmoth.
All songs recorded by Dylan Balliett with much-appreciated help from Brian Spragg, Ryan Hizer, Trey Curtis, Sean Gibat, and Bernard Parsons EXCEPT "Bear Costume" recorded by Brian Spragg.
Mixed and Mastered by David Klug.
Cover art by Bryan Minnich.

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Spirit Night is the musical alias of New York-based artist Dylan Balliett.

Contact: dylanballiett@gmail.com

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Track Name: Smigel
My silver friends have tarnished already;
I pawned the gold for solitude
Hoping I could buy them back when
I found myself in a better mood.

I picked up the tab on all your bad jokes
And, with a smile, crawled back into place
But it always looks like you are smiling
When the lips have been burned off your face.

You saw me waving.
Track Name: Bear Costume
Of all the boys living in your body,
The one I love, I never get to see.
He's hiding out of sight down on his knees
In a crowded room
Thick with black balloons.

You sold your wallet and you sold your gun
And got your species-change operation.
Now you're no longer just a human
In a bear costume
With bear shit perfume.

So eat my guts up in the hills
Like you hate them, like they hate you still.
Just give me that one little thrill:
A death that I can sing to sell
On my way to hell.

(Oooh, you got a lot of nerve for someone with no spine.
Oooh, we're gonna die on Earth, but that might still be fine.)
Track Name: The Medicine
Thank you for the medicine.
You're my best friend.
I'll see you again.
I passed out, but I'm not dead.
Let's wait a few more years on that.

I move one lightbulb through the house
To get around
'Cause we're clean out.
The shadows follow me about
But I don't mind the shadows now.

I never thought
That it would end up like this:
Gatorade bottle full of piss.

Thank you for the medicine.
You're my best friend.
I'll see you again.
I passed out, but I'm not dead.
Let's wait a few more years on that.
Track Name: Don't Miss Me
When you said,
"I'll miss you forever,
I'll miss you forever,"
I wish you'd known
I'd rather you just come on back home
Where we'd be together,
The only forever you'd ever know.

'Cause it's hard to pretend I'm not already dead
When I see it watching me
From the bus stop over there by the tree.
So I take what you said then with a grain of lead
And it's weighing down my knees.
Please don't miss me.

When you said,
"I'll miss you forever,
I'll miss you forever,"
I wish you'd known
I'd rather you'd never be alone
And we'd be together,
The only forever you'd ever know.

'Cause it's hard to pretend I'm not already dead
When I see it watching me
From the bus stop over there by the tree.
So I take what you said then with a grain of lead
And it's weighing down my knees.
Please don't miss me.
Track Name: 125
Just ignore them,
They're not saying anything at all.
Stand here with me in the kitchen,
Back against the wall.

I'm just trying to make you love me.

I will give you all that I have and some that I don't.
I won't let go until you do. I hope that you won't.

I'm just trying to make you love me.
I'm just hoping that you love me.
Track Name: Stage Lights
I'm sorry but you got me wrong:
I wasn't born to love you
And I wasn't born to tear your world apart.
You cast me in that role to make your one-act life feel full
And I am sorry that I know I wasn't born to play that part.

And now you're left alone thinking you see the curtains closing.
The stage lights overhead are flickering
And I'm there in the chair without a care just gently dozing,
The same old boy, the same new man that I have always been.

I'm sorry that I broke your heart;
I wasn't meant to hold it.
It is fragile and I dropped it on that day.
The pieces filled the room with that resounding static boom
And they are cutting through my shoes as I am trying to walk away.

And yes, it meant a lot; I wouldn't try to say it didn't
So get those dirty words out of your mouth.
What I'm trying to say is things have changed and they are different
And I don't know the way either but I am leaving now.
Track Name: Brains
The machine guns with bunny rabbit ears that shaped your fist
And the splinters of my wooden teeth that caught and cut your kiss
And the brains all over my body, they were screaming through that night,
Fighting for what they thought was the best for me, for what they thought was right.

But it wasn't right.

I've loved you since the first time I was too afraid to meet you
And I've missed you since the last time I still knew what to do.
I ate its veins and prayed and prayed that we could keep it dead
Like sister's hair that you found in the box under the bed.

But it wasn't right.
Track Name: What I Will Be
Time moves so slow when you don't know where you want to go.
I just want to see what I will be
But I'm still not sure where this week went or any of the cash I spent.
I'm wasting what they hand to me.

Brazil, New York, Japan, or start a band -- good call!
I taught myself to pray so He'd make you move back next fall

'Cause I sure can't but you're better off, plus I've got someone who lets me talk
When I'm drunk enough to say a word.
So things aren't so bad, I've got such great luck, guess I've gotta learn sometimes you just get stuck
And try my best not to be a turd.

Time moves so slow when you don't know where you want to go.
I just want to see what I will be.
Track Name: Green Street
So you tried cocaine and
Well, you're still my friend
And then you tried heroin.
Don't do that again.
My habits, they aren't so bad;
I am bigger than this.
The things that I can't let go
Are only things I won't miss.

But when I go outside sometimes,
It's like the sun's too bright
And I can't handle feeling that,
That I am alive.

We made our own calendar.
It is based on the sun
Revolving around us and
Our year's just begun.
I'm dying to see you when
The summer is gone,
When I've wiped my memory
To carry this on.

But when I go outside sometimes,
It's like the sun's too bright
And I can't handle feeling that,
That I am alive.
Track Name: Gone Down
I wasn't happy with the way it all went down.
I should have grabbed a knife and chased you out of town.

Instead, you went so slow, looking back along the way
As if you hoped I still had more fucked up shit left to say.
Keep waiting for that day!

So far I'm happy with the way it's all gone down.
I see a new light shining on my side of town.

But it's still snowing now out there down beneath the trees.
You can see it now, it's falling faster than the leaves.
I'm warm in this winter breeze.

I won't forget you;
I've tried and tried and tried and tried.
Track Name: The Last Cigarette
The last cigarette was smoked in haste on the third night of the break.
I should have savored its bitter taste but you were somewhere still awake.
The dog was crying when I came in; must have seen my light outside.
But she was lying on the leather couch; we both have bad habits to hide
And I don't want to worry about that anymore.