Shame

by Spirit Night

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NYC via WV musician Dylan Balliett releases Shame, his third album as Spirit Night, on July 10th via Broken World Media (The World Is A Beautiful Place and I Am No Longer Afraid to Die, Told Slant).

On Shame, Balliett brings to life a cast of accidental murderers, alcoholic creeps, and shut-in paranoiacs to explore themes like loss of innocence, the mundanity of evil, and the struggle to define a personal identity in a world filled with both horror and beauty in equal doses. Taken all at once, Shame feels like a cathartic purging of psychic pain, a direct confrontation with failures of the past along the path to personal redemption. Balliett tempers the heaviness of the album’s subject matter with touches of irony and humor to lighten the mood and the final takeaway is an outlook of optimism and triumph in the face of suffering.

Written during a period of social isolation following Balliett’s move from Appalachia to NYC, Shame combines and refines the sounds of Spirit Night’s previous releases to arrive at a unique brand of folk-influenced jangle pop. "In Case You Come Back" twinkles like a snowy Dean Wareham daydream while following a grieving widow whose magical thinking has her believing her dead husband might still return. “The Last Hurrah” is an anthem of avoidance, detailing one character’s struggle with acting on the decision to get sober. “Crossing Atlantic Avenue” is a walk of shame past minor Brooklyn landmarks that calls to mind a subdued Smiths as echo chamber electric guitar shimmers above a krautrock-inspired drum pattern. The album shifts stylistically from song to song, touching on upbeat power pop (“Walk Away”) and muddy dirges (“Hospital Bed”), bedroom singalongs (“Couch”) and fuzzed-out folk-rock anthems (“Sylvia”), all while maintaining the same thematic tone and focus.

Spirit Night’s Shame is an unrelenting vision of trauma and regret worthy of repeat listens this summer.

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released 17 July 2015

Recorded, mixed, and mastered by David Klug at David Klug Studio in Pittsburgh, PA, August 2014 to March 2015.
Written by Dylan Balliett.
Performed by Spirit Night.

Spirit Night is:
Dylan Balliett - Guitar and Vocals
Ryan Hizer - Bass, Organ, Synthesizer
Pete Wilmoth - Drums and Percussion

Keyboard Kurtis plays keyboard on "Couch."

Thanks to Annie and the Sullivans.

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Spirit Night New York, New York

Spirit Night is the musical alias of New York-based artist Dylan Balliett.

Contact: dylanballiett@gmail.com

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Track Name: Running Shoes
When we met in the mountains, we played in the fountains like we’d never get old
So when we did, it was too soon and I couldn’t forgive you for the lies that you told
I’m still making to-do lists, leaving them unchecked under my bed
I just can’t believe you’d be happy to see me after all that I’ve said

And I don’t miss the days I thought that you were mine
It’s funny how that fades with time
And pints of whiskey every night
Romantically in the twilight
If something ever turns out right
I’ll switch to wine

Or maybe limit my intake to manage the heartache that good times will bring
‘Cause now my memories slipping. I don’t know what I’m missing; I just miss everything
Baby, your teeth are crooked, but each one is perfect standing alone
And maybe that’s why I had to abandon the old crew and go out on my own

And I don’t miss the days I thought that I was dead
It’s hard to live inside your head
On only nicotine and bread
With all the books you still haven’t read
I’m putting on my running shoes
To leave my bed

I’m planning a major comeback
That no one will notice at all
My ghost has already gone back
To that dark and deadly fall
To walk down our old house’s halls
And paint over the dirty walls
We left when we went away
Track Name: Walk Away
I should have known to walk away
And save my hate for another day
But how could I have known my hands
Had that kind of power
When they tremble at my sides
Throughout the darkest hours?

I should have known to walk away
And save my hate for the working day
I was working to forget
When you found me back there
In the garden of the bar
Just trying to get some fresh air

But I lost control a moment and
You lost something that you’re never gonna get back again
Now I count the days til I see the sky
And think of your face when that old train comes rolling on by

Why’d you have to die?

I should have known to walk away
And save my hate for a rainy day
But my pride’s a fragile thing
That I must look after
And I couldn’t march away
To the music of laughter

I lost control a moment and
You lost something that you’re never gonna get back again.
Now I count the days til I see the sky
And think of your face when that old train comes rolling on by

Why’d you have to die?
Track Name: Hospital Bed
Stuck in that hospital bed
You did this all on your own
Or so the nurses all said
Before they left us alone

Maybe you’re not thinking of me
When you say everyone’s let you down
But I still take responsibility
For not dragging you all the way out
From under that shadow of doubt

20 cent pitchers of beer
I met you back in ‘04
But I’ve known you 26 years
Where was your body before?

Maybe you’re not thinking of me
When you say everyone’s let you down
But I still take responsibility
For not reaching my hand all the way out
And just watching a friend of mine drown

And I know how it feels
Except I don’t know how it feels at all
Just that this winter’s almost gone and next winter’s almost here
Can I see you in fall?

Maybe you’re not thinking of me
When you say the whole world’s let you down
But I still take responsibility
For not calling when you were in town
I thought I’d see you next time around
Track Name: Sylvia (World of Hate)
We rode bikes past that house on the day that she died
And there wasn't a sound or a chill in the air
We only later heard news of what had happened inside
When her body gave out at the foot of the stairs

If there was something underground
Just screaming to be let out
We didn't notice it until
It left its tracks through our town
And in the bloody aftermath
We stood looking around
And wondering where we had been
Looking before the day when

Somebody could have saved you if you had only spoken out
And no, I could never blame you-- I only wish you had now
When they breathed into your body, it was already too late
And you'd only just had that one look at a world of hate

We threw rocks at that house for the next fifty years
And no figure appeared in the attic window
We skipped class and we drank stolen bottles of beer
In the back of your car on the way to the show

And we grew up and we moved out
Every year in small ways
Past the Jesus billboards and
Beyond the forgotten graves
Of Sylvia and all the rest
I don't remember their names
But I'm afraid that underground
Their flesh decayed the same way

Somebody could have saved you if you had only spoken out
And no, I could never blame you-- I only wish you had now
When they breathed into your body, it was already too late
And you'd only just had that one look at a world of hate

And when it happens, it is never quite clear
How this could happen, but it does every year
I'll sleep through the same life
That was taken from you
Though it doesn't seem right
But what more could I do?

Somebody could have saved you if you had only spoken out
And no, I could never blame you-- I'm just thinking out loud
When they breathed into your body, it was already too late
And you'd only just had that one look at a world of hate
Track Name: The Last Hurrah
I know what steps I must take
To stop making these mistakes
And I have been making plans
To become a better version
Of a numb and bitter person
In control and in command

I can say with confidence
It's over after July
I've got some friends in town next week
It's over and done on New Year's Day
After we've had a chance to speak
And every night's the last hurrah
Every night's the last hurrah
It's over until next time

Remember me when I am gone
Pissing on the neighbor's front lawn.
You don't know I pissed the bed
And that I almost bled out that night
In toilet water under blacklight
Not knowing what I had said

I can say with confidence
It's over after July
I've got some friends in town next week
It's over and done on New Year's Day
After we've had a chance to speak
And every night's the last hurrah
Every night's the last hurrah
It's over until next time

Until next time
That I get sick
Of my sick mind
Until next time
That I get sick
Of my sick mind

I can say with confidence
It's over after July
I've got some friends in town next week
It's over and done on New Year's Day
After we've had a chance to speak
And every night's the last hurrah
Every night's the last hurrah
It's over until next time
Track Name: In Case You Come Back
I called your phone again
And heard it ringing in our dresser drawer
I keep it charged and leave it on
Though you don't need it anymore
But when your voice came on
Everything felt just like it did before
And I cried sorry til it cut off
And threw my phone on the floor

Your shirt is hanging on the shower rod
The door is on the latch
I'll leave the front hall light on all night long
In case you come back

I thought I heard your car
Pull into the garage the other night
But there was nothing when I looked out
And turned on the ceiling light
So I went back to bed
And made sure not to roll onto your side
We've had our obstacles before, I know
We're gonna be alright

Your shirt is hanging on the shower rod
The door is on the latch
I'll leave the front hall light on all night long
In case you come back

Your shirt is hanging on the shower rod
The door is on the latch
I'll leave the front hall light on all night long
In case you come back
In case you come back
In case you come back
In case you come back
Track Name: Tell That One Again
I woke up on your leather couch
In the afternoon
Helped you empty the cans of beer
Left around the room

It was good to see you again
Though it’s less and less
We’ll always be friends
And I won’t feel so alone
When it’s time to go
When the party ends

Tell that one again
About the fights we won
About the girls we kissed
In 2001

It was good to see you again
Though it’s less and less
We’ll always be friends
And I won’t feel so alone
When it’s time to go
When the party ends

Drive me downtown in
Your brand new car
I’ll take the bus back
To my guitar
I’m gonna be a big star

I woke up in the house you bought
In the afternoon
Helped you pick up the paper plates
Left around the room

It was good to see you again
Though it’s less and less
We’ll always be friends
And I won’t feel so alone
When it’s time to go
When the party ends

Tell that one again
Track Name: Crossing Atlantic Avenue
Crossing Atlantic Avenue
Retracing my steps back home from you
Halfway to the other side
The flashing hand solidifies
And I watch the trucks roll through

Crossing Atlantic Avenue
(I never want to go home I never want to go home)
Could not be the hardest thing I’ll do
(But I will do it alone I will do it alone)

And when I’m back in bed in Bed-Stuy
I will relive the short goodbye
Trying to read your palm
Pretending the life line’s long
And I didn’t live mine wrong
And that I really tried

I thought it could be something more than a mistake we made twice in our lives
But now I can see I was feeding my heartache, grabbing and twisting the knife
I needed something warm and you’re gone
I needed something
I’m not cold- I’ll leave the heater on
Til the morning

Crossing Atlantic Avenue
(I never want to go home I never want to go home)
Could not be the hardest thing I’ll do
(But I will do it alone I will do it alone)

And in a year I’ll have forgotten
I ever even let you in
Trying to read your palm
Pretending the life line’s long
And I didn’t live mine wrong
And I don’t see the end

I thought it could be something more than a mistake we made twice in our lives
But now I can see I was feeding my heartache, grabbing and twisting the knife
I needed something warm and you’re gone
I needed something
I’m not cold- I’ll leave the heater on
Til the morning
Track Name: Shame
I’ve been trying to forget the past and let myself move on
But I remember every word I’ve ever said to anyone

When we’re dead and we’re gone who will know?
When we’re dead and we’re gone no one will know
We were ever even here

Please tell me you can’t see the
Evil in my eyes
I’ve tried to hide it but
It’s been there all my life

I’ve been trying to move on from you and everyone.
I’ve been trying to forget the past and accept that it’s gone.

When we’re dead and we’re gone who will know?
When we’re dead and we’re gone no one will know
We were ever even here

Please tell me you can’t see the
Evil in my eyes
I’ve tried to hide it but
It’s been there all my life

Please tell me you can’t see the
Hatred in my eyes
I’ve tried to hide it but
It still comes out sometimes

I don’t want to hide
Til the end of time
Please believe me when I say that
I’m sorry for my crimes